Is There Meaning In This Journey?

I have reached a bit of a crossroads. Though I'm still awaiting my final grades for my summary MTS papers, I've essentially graduated. I am now looking at Ph.D. programs, with most of my professors encouraging me to consider University programs over Seminary programs. I have also been encouraged to look at who is teaching at a particular institution, rather than just choose on name alone. To that extent, I've ruled my decision down to two American schools, Princeton and Trinity Evangelical Divinity Seminary.

But I find myself cornered by my own anxities. I wonder, do I really have something inside of me, trying to get out, something to be added to the ocean of knowledge already out there (and in some cases, drowning Christians?). I must resolutely answer, yes. I know it's in there. I know that it is.

O Lord, please help me. Help me to be patient; to wait upon You. Help me to trust in Your calling me. Help me to trust in what others see You doing in and through me. I am thankful for being a part of a gracious community of faith that seeks to speak faithfully, through Your very Spirit. I feel like You have shown me/revealed to me so much over these last few years. I believe that what I've learned, is, at least in part, pushing me toward this next part of my journey. But lest you, dear reader, think that this is where I root the meaning of my journey, you are wrong. The meaning of this journey comes from the One who first called me. And in the darknest night of my soul, that is not only what I must remember. More importantly, He is the One who reminds me of His call and calling, in the past, and through the present. O Lord, You are the very meaning in this journey. And for that, I am thankful.

And what about you, dear reader... is there meaning in your journey?